Why forgetful posts why

The default permalink for a blog post page here on Blogger ends with its title, with dashes replacing the spaces. But I like to change it so that it's the day, a dash, then the daily post number. For some reason I keep forgetting to change that permalink on posts that mention forgetfulness. Ironic coincidence? Subconscious self-prank? Oh well, few people besides me care.

While we're on the topic of forgetfulness, sometimes I have something to post when I wake up. However, by the time I get to my blog to post, the words have disappeared. They're kind of like dreams, but I don't remember any dreams actually inspiring those words. I feel like they form as I wake up, then vanish when I've started being active. In general, I think a lot about my situation and about you when I wake up. Those other thoughts, at least for a while, vanish when I get up and do things.

I think as good a way as any to close this one is to note what won't be forgotten. I can't just forget you, and you can't just forget me. It'd take some brain damage or hypnosis, and I really hope brain damage doesn't come into play. Okay, that's too odd of a note to end on. Just remember that I keep going for you.

I forgot to say

I was so scared in that room. Many things were left unsaid. I did manage to say that your wellbeing is the most important thing to me. I didn't get to say that I can accept being your friend. In fact, I'm okay with being whatever you want me to be, as long as I'm somehow yours, but I wouldn't have said all that in that room. I tried to acknowledge that you need to heal. I tried to say that I wasn't healing without you. I hope you heard what I was trying to say.

I hope you can remember me when you're better. I want you to help me to heal after you've recovered. If I can ever get better without you, then I will. I'll do whatever I can so that you can call me your friend again.