There have been some long posts here, and there have been some short ones. Sometimes I put posts up only an hour apart from each other. Despite those things, I always have something to say to you. There are many things I want to say to you. The real consideration is how to say it. You'll read these messages some day, and I want to convey them as well as I can. Keeping to updating twice every day forces me to search for words. It forces me to try to think and understand myself. Where I would otherwise sink further without your presence, expressing myself to you keeps me afloat.
I like to think that each message means as much as the other. The meanings themselves can be very different, but I see all of them as equally important to understand. These words are vessels for my hope, even when I'm covering something up.
