What to watch

I was talking to one of my instructors today about what kinds of shows I like to watch. Well, I was making vague hand gestures and slowly finding words to put together. 4 hours of sleep, night classes, midterms, yeah. I did find words, but I've been thinking about how exactly to explain what I wanted to. Somehow it's always easier to type down.

What I ended up saying to my instructor was something along the lines of, "I like to watch things that give me concepts and characters that I can put together in ways not necessarily explored canonically." My instructor had a different choice of words that I think better describes my taste. Something that keeps you thinking afterward. When it's finished, you don't just think, "Oh, that was a nice story." You start imagining all the what-ifs and filling in the blanks. Yes, not only more eloquently said than I could do, put together with seemingly no hesitation, but much wordier than I could manage. And here I thought I was doing well on 4 hours.

Marvel's put out a series on Netflix for their Daredevil character. My instructor recommended it to me, and I indulged as soon as I got home and reheated some pizza powdered with cayenne and dotted with jalapeño. Actually, I paused the first episode with a bit under 20 minutes left. It has certainly got a great first episode, and I'm excited to watch more. Well, to finish watching this episode, let's begin there. Of course, something like this suits my tastes just fine.

You've probably been gaming, not watching shows. Either way, I hope you've been engaged with your choice of fiction. I'll continue doing likewise, whenever I can spare some time.

I stayed up as planned

Like I said I would, I stayed awake all night. A good handful of code was written, and some of it was rewritten. My computer logic doesn't particularly suffer when I'm tired, but I made mistakes that I normally would, you see. Many hours of music were listened to between that mix I showed you and the Minecraft OST. That OST disappeared from my computer somehow, so I bothered to get it back. Since I was awake during the night, I was also able to talk to an internet friend of mine throughout her day. Oh Internet, how peculiar you make life on this round Earth.

Unfortunately, around 2AM that good mood that had got me pumped for an all-nighter had faded. Coding became tedious, decent posture became a chore, the music became uninteresting, and staying open wasn't something my eyelids wanted to do. I was starting to not want to talk to my friend, too. I know that wasn't just an effect of tiredness because that's never happened to me before on an all-nighter. My friend was being pleasant and offering interesting chit chat, too, so it's not like I got bored or irritated with her. Despite consideration of rest, I decided to continue push through the morning. I did recover my enjoyment, though not fully. All in all, it was a productive and nice night.

I went to bed as planned at 7:30. My alarm was set for 2:00, but I didn't nearly get that much sleep. I found myself awake at 11:30 instead, after only 4 hours of rest. I haven't been able to sleep since. Depression does that, but I also don't feel tired on limited sleep either, and I think that's also the apathy. Yes, I did my midterm today on only 4 hours of sleep. I believe that I did well though! Got the next half in two days, and I have much more work to complete in the meanwhile.

So even though all the signs say my good mood is over- maybe I should call it a extraordinary mood instead? Because, though I'm pained right now, I think I'm still doing pretty good. I'll attribute that to you, of course. When my mood ran out, it was my desire to be good enough for you that made me keep trying. That effort worked without hurting me. Thank you. That's something that I feel I can only do with you in mind.