I stayed up as planned

Like I said I would, I stayed awake all night. A good handful of code was written, and some of it was rewritten. My computer logic doesn't particularly suffer when I'm tired, but I made mistakes that I normally would, you see. Many hours of music were listened to between that mix I showed you and the Minecraft OST. That OST disappeared from my computer somehow, so I bothered to get it back. Since I was awake during the night, I was also able to talk to an internet friend of mine throughout her day. Oh Internet, how peculiar you make life on this round Earth.

Unfortunately, around 2AM that good mood that had got me pumped for an all-nighter had faded. Coding became tedious, decent posture became a chore, the music became uninteresting, and staying open wasn't something my eyelids wanted to do. I was starting to not want to talk to my friend, too. I know that wasn't just an effect of tiredness because that's never happened to me before on an all-nighter. My friend was being pleasant and offering interesting chit chat, too, so it's not like I got bored or irritated with her. Despite consideration of rest, I decided to continue push through the morning. I did recover my enjoyment, though not fully. All in all, it was a productive and nice night.

I went to bed as planned at 7:30. My alarm was set for 2:00, but I didn't nearly get that much sleep. I found myself awake at 11:30 instead, after only 4 hours of rest. I haven't been able to sleep since. Depression does that, but I also don't feel tired on limited sleep either, and I think that's also the apathy. Yes, I did my midterm today on only 4 hours of sleep. I believe that I did well though! Got the next half in two days, and I have much more work to complete in the meanwhile.

So even though all the signs say my good mood is over- maybe I should call it a extraordinary mood instead? Because, though I'm pained right now, I think I'm still doing pretty good. I'll attribute that to you, of course. When my mood ran out, it was my desire to be good enough for you that made me keep trying. That effort worked without hurting me. Thank you. That's something that I feel I can only do with you in mind.