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Tell Her Before I Die has over 50 +1s on the main page. Only one person follows it through Blogger, but that's okay because I understand that people who don't blog on Blogger won't care to activate Blogger on their Google accounts. My G+ account is followed by over 720 other accounts. The highest number of +1s one of these messages has gotten is 24, and the lowest is 0. That one with the highest +1s was my Mothers' Day message. I'm sure the reason for this is that I made images in several different languages from that message and shared them on G+ with the link. The message with the highest number of registered page views was The braver, with 34 views.

With that recitation of statistics, you probably think I'm about to complain that the blog should get more attention. No, that's not where I'm going. There's one more statistic that I've left out: every message with no +1s and less than 5 registered page views are ones that I didn't share on Google+. I can make one of two things of this. Either most of my supporters only look at Tell Her Before I Die when they see it appear in their G+ stream, or most of them don't look at the posts individually. I've also noticed that the blog's registered page views appear to decrease drastically when I don't share to G+, so it would seem like the former is true. But that Mothers' Day message has more +1s than registered page views, so obviously the page view count is unreliable.

At first I felt bad about sharing my messages to G+. One of the main reasons I started writing here instead of on G+ was because I didn't want to flood my followers with depressing messages, after all. I still feel a little guilty realizing that sharing may be the only way to get people to look at my messages. It's not so terrible, though. At any rate, I'm satisfied and thankful that people are reading this at all.

Forgetfulness and quesadillas

The quesadillas I make now are always stuffed with goodies. The one I made today had cayenne powder and chopped tomato, onion, celery, and lettuce. It's been hard to keep the quesadilla together when I'm eating with all those things in there with the cheese. One response I've come up with is cutting the quesadilla into thirds. Another that I tried today is adding an extra slice of cheese, since cheese is the glue of a quesadilla. Except it's more healthy and delicious than glue.

Why the heck did I do that? I figured out a while back that two slices of cheese is ideal for the size of tortilla that I use to avoid overflow. Consequently the cheese, and some of the quesadilla's other contents, overflowed while I toasted it. Derp. Seemed like a brilliant idea when I came up with it.

What I'm wondering now is why I forgot the ideal cheese amount. Thanks to depression, there have been many times when I was so wrapped up in sudden sadness or apathy that I forgot how to do what I was doing, or even what I was supposed to be doing. I don't think depression is to blame this time, though. I was feeling fine when I was putting my tortilla sandwich together. I've gotta blame this one on good old-fashioned adventurism and forgetfulness! Tried to break out of habit and forgot why the reason I had that habit in the first place.

That's not so bad of a mistake though. Remember that time you were making a quesadilla for me and you forgot to put the top tortilla on before closing the quesadilla maker? You were so upset when you opened the maker and realized your mistake that you threw the quesadilla - well, open cheese sandwich of tortilla - right into the trash. I still would have eaten it if you hadn't thrown it away, I told you. Waste not was, and to a much lesser extent still is, my food philosophy. Not sure what lead you to that mistake, especially since that wasn't your first use of a quesadilla maker and your previous attempts were perfectly successful. I'm glad you were eventually able to look back at the incident and laugh, especially since I'm immortalizing it on Tell Her Before I Die now.

I still enjoyed the quesadilla that I made. After thoroughly moving the quesadilla and overflow onto a plate, I just ate up the overflow with a fork. From there I was able to enjoy the rest of the quesadilla by hand. I'll have to remember next time that the cheese amount must stay constant. Maybe there's some better way to arrange the ingredients. I'll experiment with that and see what comes of it. At least if I make some grave mistake then I can write it off in the name of science, since stuffing my quesadillas is relatively uncharted territory for me. If I forget one of the tortillas, though, I'll be disappointed in myself.