I told one of our mutual friends that I think about you in many of the things I do. He said to make those things my own. I think I've begun to do that. When I watch our favorite YouTubers, I watch them because they make me happy. When I take pictures of my family like you'd often be forced to do, I remind myself that they are my family. When I watch TV series and movies, I keep in mind that I am enjoying the show. Anime was always more my passion than yours, so watching anime is easily my thing, no emphasis required.
On the flip side, I'm not going to lie and say that they are only mine. I do occasionally remember how we used to do these things together, and I wish we were still doing it together. But that isn't the primary thought in my mind, at least not while I'm actually doing those things. While I'm enjoying myself, those thoughts of us being together aren't regretful but hopeful. We'll do this again someday. It'll all be fine, and we'll be best friends again. And you still won't want to watch anime with me, but I'll just do that on my own.
While I'm making our things mine, I'll play Final Fantasy VII all the way through. You aren't holding me back in Midgar anymore with your plea, "Don't play any further than I have!" No matter how much you roleplay FFVII, that game and its lore are going to be my experience. The flip side to this? I'm looking forward to roleplaying it with you again... you'll like that, too.
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