Depressed isn't the worst thing

I'm somewhat relieved that I'm primarily depressed. It's better than, for example, being primarily irritable. I surely wouldn't be able to keep a smile with strangers if I were primarily irritable. And it's much better that I'm not primarily murderous. I mean, then I would actually be a threat. One more example? I'm glad that I'm not primarily vicious. There are fates worse than death, and I have no desire to bind people to those fates.

Being depressed is harmful to the people around me, but it certainly isn't the worst thing. I said I'd lie to people, and I am lying, but my mask slips away very easily. I've trained myself so well to open up to people that covering up is now difficult. Still, my efforts have helped the people around me. They're happier when they see me acting happy, laughing, indulging myself. You'd be happy around me, too; since being with me helps me overcome my depression, my coverup would be more effective.

All in all, I'm somewhat satisfied that I'm only depressed. That means that I'm not a threat. And that means that I can be with you.