I've wondered in what ways you think of me. Worried, more like it. I've found that isn't a good thing to give much consideration to. A better question to ask is when I'm in your thoughts. The results aren't as potentially devastating to me.
If you don't think about me at all, then that can be a good thing. That means I'm not even indirectly screwing with your life. I'm not to blame for anything stress you have because I'm not even at the back of your mind. It would make me happy to know that you're doing well, even if it's because I'm not there.
If you think about me all the time, that can be good too. I'll pull out a Fall Out Boy lyric for this: I don't care what you think, as long as it's about me! It means you still care about me. I still mean something to you. Perhaps I would mean something terrible, but then I can't quite be replaced in your life. You'd have to confront that eventually; you'd have to talk.
Ideally, you think about me just some of the time. I'd be out of your head long enough for you to go about your life. I'd be on your mind enough to make you think. You could keep your life stable, and you could come to really consider where you've left me. There's surely a balance that would help you to progress. That's all out of my hands, though. Hope and prayers are all I can turn to.
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