I keep browsing for ideas

I often wake up in the morning and think, "Let's write a message for Tell Her Before I Die." These days I haven't often been waking up with a negative thought hounding me. It's not like having those thoughts ever got me sitting down and writing, though. I usually stare at the screen for a few minutes, trying to find something worthwhile to say.

In the mornings, I've got a night's worth of friends' thoughts online to catch up on. After a few seconds of staring at my blank message, I give in to checking on them. Perhaps seeing what they're up to will inspire me, even. Before long, I'm worrying that I haven't eaten breakfast yet, and I go out to make and eat a meal. Usually I'm watching a show while I eat, even though it doesn't take long for me to finish my food. Back to check on G+, hoping for inspiration. I do schoolwork and take care of other responsibilities and needs. Finally it's 10PM and I'm fretting that I haven't written anything, and I don't have anything to write. That's a usual day for me.

It's then that I once again sit and stare, investing time into finding in myself what I'd like to say. There is that moment of temptation to be distracted, but it doesn't hold as much weight at the end of the day. With this concentration, I discover my topic and my words. Heh, that's most writers, isn't it? Goofing off under the pretense of finding inspiration, when all they really had to do was meditate on it. A portion of my messages have been inspired by looking around for triggers, but I think I should just look more often right at myself.

After all, I'm writing about my experience. That should be pretty easy. No need to go out and find new concepts, no need to research and cite sources. Maybe I'm just becoming too concerned about the entertainment value of these messages. Maybe I'm becoming too concerned with writing something impressive. I should just let the impressive things come as they will. I should just reveal what's on my mind, no matter how dumb it may seem. This situation is a stupid one to be in to begin with.