I've gotten a few compliments about Tell Her Before I Die. Beautiful, deep, and relatable are among the qualities ascribed. I appreciate these comments. Now if only they were left on the blog itself, instead of on G+.
There is one word that's been said to me that really gets me, though. Inspirational. How could these messages, or how could I, be inspirational? Whenever I think about inspiration, I think of things that already are and already have concluded. Inspirational stories are ones that turned out well. Inspirational people are the ones who have beaten all the odds and become successful or found peace. Relatable, understandable, even pitiful are what I can easily see my efforts and experiences as. But inspirational? I'm nowhere near a conclusion. All is not well, not yet.
That's me thinking narrowly, though. I can turn my head and see where that word is coming from. Maybe things don't need to have concluded to be motivational. Maybe it's the hope in a struggle that can be inspirational, not just the victory. From that angle, I understand. I say things like that I'll keep going for love, and maybe that is inspirational. In the Prevention box I say, "I'm still here for her, so maybe you can keep going." Sure, I hope that can truly be inspirational. I guess that, if I need a conclusion for something to inspirational, maybe I could look at the short term. Right now, I'm holding my ground against depression. I'm still alive and going on. That's a good thing. If that's the final note for this moment, then I think it is inspirational.
I guess I just prefer the word motivational for the short term, for things that aren't quite finished. I am motivated, by you and by everyone who reads this. Thank you for helping me to keep going.
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